Sad to leave my mom, sister, and two best friends

I REALLY want to die. Let’s get that out of the way first. I AM going to do it. Within the next few months, probably early June. That doesn’t mean that I think no one cares about me. There are 4 people in this world that care about me and I, in return, care about them (along with everyone else, but that’s just me). I can’t stand the thought of leaving them behind. But, then again, I believe that I’m going to heaven. That’s very comforting to think that I will be reunited with the ones that are no longer here. There’s way more people in heaven that care about me here. All my grandparents, my aunt that I never met, 3 of my friends, my pets etc. etc. etc.