A few days back er 13th April to be exact, a friend of mine just awkwardly confessed that he had feelings for me. I had was honest and told him I liked him too but am not willing for a relationship. So we keep what we had which was great. A friendship where I’m not judged for anything I say or do. Somehow we just click. It’s painful to see him hate himself and hurt himself but he has pulled me out of the self harming phase I’ve been in for years. We’ve both been having a really crappy few days. I’ve been crying myself to sleep. And he’s been smoking weed just to avoid nightmares but somehow it still works. We’re still comfortable making random jokes. We trust each other but we’re fine with the silence between us about some things. He’s an year or so younger then me and we both have crappy past relationship experience mine worse then his. But we’re just kids, I’m 17 and he’s 16, so to get to the point here do I have something good? Is it worth it? Should I take the leap of faith?
I’m scared because my ex caused me so much pain. Idk what to do. The panic attacks are getting worse and I’m avoiding sleep. Finals are next week though so gotta sleep better. Should I stop before his feelings become more pronounced?
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Hard to say. I think I’d like to be in your shoes and go for it. The said, the friendship may be more valuable without the murky waters of a relationship.
But I would say, however, not to avoid the possible good because of an ex or fear. If he was bad for you, not all of us are, use your intuition. If it just hurt at the end, well that happens, but don’t be like me