10 months ago I had a stroke. I still don’t have feelings in my effected hand. I bump, knock over, drop things unintentionally. If I’m not looking at my hand I don’t know if I am grabbing anything like potato chips or if I drop something in the car. It’s beyond frustrating. When people hand me thing it takes me a while and sometimes they give me a look like “hurry up”.
That being said, I went to my favorite thrift store and found an amazing tank top that I loved. I must have dropped it or something. I thought I bought it, but I didn’t. The store is 6 hours drive from where I am so I can’t go to check if they still have it. I checked for a couple of hours online to see if I could find it to no avail. I also have bad memory now and I thought I had it in the car. If I had known that I didn’t purchase it I would have ran right back in.
I’ve been feeling miserable since and I was so excited to wear it. I had gained a bunch of weight from the stroke and lost it again and was feeling victorious. I feel like absolute shit. I miss my ex more and more each day and my bad luck streak continues. Why couldn’t I just have had this one small thing?
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this post makes me very emotional for various personal reasons and I so want to contribute but the more profound and personal a post is the harder it gets for me to say something. I can’t say I’m sorry, I can’t offer any help I can’t do anything. I’m sitting here in despair and angry that someone somewhere has felt like this.
I wanted to post this here as an open letter to those who seem to be concerned about the superficiality of discussions that take place on SP.
Thank you! Your words make me feel better! They really do!
Yeah, sometimes it’s the smallest things that can really set you off, especially after having a shit storm fuck with your life.
God i can’t even imagine how you feel, having something so traumatising happen to your body.
I would try to offer some help, but i don’t know what i could possibly say to make you feel better.
I just hope that something positive comes back into your life, to counter the awful things that have happened.
Thank you! Your words do make me feel better! I hope it comes back too and I wish you the best of luck as well!
I know how you feel, many times I’ve found something positive to grip onto, even just a little thing, only to have it fall out of reach. Yours being literal as well as metaphorical must be beyond frustrating :/
It may be comforting for you to know there are others here suffering through physical/medical issues along with you, myself included. I hope you can get it back, or find an even more awesome shirt :3
Thank you!
I’m sorry. I wish I could give you that tank top.
Thank you! If only I could find it elsewhere online.
I can only try to imagine how frustrating it must be for you right now. I am glad you can get around. It sounds like you’ve made strides?
May your next shopping trip be marvelously successful, where you find items that are twice as nice.
Keep focusing on your healing, it sounds like you’re getting there.
Yes I’ve made huge strides. I couldn’t walk or utilize my hand at all 11 months ago. Trying to keep focus, just been having bad days lately.
stop it, you will be fine just remember to embrace the hate. and join me!
Hollow_man : Is that you Darth Vader? haha
Hey! I’m sorry that this happened to you. I don’t have any advice,sorry
Thank you for your kind words!