For about 2hrs now, all I’ve been thinking off is just to end it all. I’ve been having this really strong urge to just get up and head to my room and just offing myself. If the urge becomes too strong to bear than I shall just go ahead and be done with it, at least than I’ll be at eternal peace.
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This. Happens to me a lot you see I have hours and hours of boredom and thinking. I drive a truck but one thing I found that has truly helped is music check out a song from “VNV nation” called “can you see the light”
Thank bud. I’ll check it out. Music definitely helps me relax. I work 2 jobs and learning business on the side. As much as I love what I’m doing, sometimes I just pause to think if it’s all worth it. I’ve had depression since my early teenage years. It’s an on and off thing.
Too much windshield time. Did it for 8 years, solitude about drove me crazier than I already was. You have a tough, lonely life that we all take for granted. You know the cliches, trucks stop the country stops, etc. Thanks for being out there.
Sorry for the tangent, Soul unbound. What you’re dealing with has got to be maddening. “Do I or don’t I?!?!” I hope you find some peace from that urge.
The feeling of worthlessness and not belonging to this world. I feel like this world is hell itself. I think part of the problem is not having enough time for myself to do what I want. Also Im really bad at socialising with girls so I tend to push them away and isolate myself from family and friends.
Me too. I’m done tonight. Good luck to you.
I hope you’re okay.