I’ve been suicidal for a good few months. There’s no actual cause of my depression but circumstances make it 10x worse obviously. And it started back up after I quit my job, and then everything went down hill but what made it worse it seems is when I heard about a boy I had met briefly shot himself. When I heard about him shooting himself, i became obsessed with the idea of shooting myself, and ever since then, it would pop up from time to time but recently has gotten worse.
I don’t have a gun nor am I going to get one. I’ve been thinking about admitting myself to the hospital. I have a physical therapy appointment tomorrow. And then I have another appointment on the 11th so I have to probably do it after that
But anyway, I just I’ve been so stressed out, depressed and this always happens no matter what. Where I go to the hospital because I’m suicidal, take the pills, go to therapy and then stop the pills and going to therapy because it’s not working then it happens all over again
I haven’t been to a mental hospital in a good couple of years and I’m kind of scared to go back. I won’t be able to smoke. I won’t be able to have my phone and who knows how long they’ll have me there.
I mainly want to go to have a break but also to see if I can try some new medications so should I admit myself or should I just schedule a thing with a therapist?
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Maybe you should first schedule a thing with your therapist and see what their take on this is. I guess it also depends on your previous experience of a mental hospital. If it helped, then it’s obviously a potential option.