Despite turmoil in my head I did well…

on my final. I got 0 seconds of sleep last night while I was having constant panic attacks. Despite that, I got a B on my final and, therefor, a B in one of the 4 classes I’m currently taking. Also, my dad called me today and said that he does not approve of me extending my, now long, break from having a job. Whatever. The thing is, I STILL care what he thinks. I STILL do whatever it takes to make him happy. So messed up. He has caused me WAY more pain than a father should ever inflict on their child, and yet I try to make him happy. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???