She told me ‘life is hard enough without these moments of suicide and who’s worth what’ and I knew she was sick of me, the same way my other friend lied about caring. So I left them both, I need someone to tell me that I’m worth something. I need a sign. I feel like I’m losing my mind, crying every five minutes, feeling dull, wanting to bleed, thoughts about things I don’t want. I hope I can die soon, it was going to be september, but now plans have changed. I can’t hold on for much longer.
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People say these things because they don’t understand. If they haven’t experienced what you’re going through they honestly think that you can and should just snap out of it. Maybe they think that you are putting it on because they just can’t imagine it. You don’t have to prove anything to anyone. What you are going through is your experience, it’s real and it’s terrible. It is also a fact that sometimes people just don’t care. Awful but true. I hope that you can find a way through it all. You are worth something.
It was from someone that experienced the same. I knew she was getting sick of me from previous conversations anyway, if you don’t actually kill yourself, people don’t want you around right? thank you, you too.