is it good or pleasant
that the only thing i can guarantee you, is a possibility
is it cool that it’s al a 50:50 chance
no
it’s not
but it’s better than a 100% of only considering the negative
at least it doesn’t have to end
with a young man jumping off a bridge
with a car
into the river
forever breaking his mother’s heart
& forever causing me to sense the loss
&the guilt, for not reaching out to him the right way
or in the right time
at least it gives this young man
the chance to change his mind
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Hi ShiSui. How are you doing today?
when u first came here
I had a lot of questions for u…
but at some point it seemed to me
communication between us was not working
u seemed too angry to explain
& I was too eager to understand…
& when I realized this constant clash
I thought of giving you space
& give myself a chance to read through what u write
now
for reasons i don’t know
I feel silent
I’m struggling to write the words I’m writing now
but still I write them
& I pray I’m not too late
if I’m to think of a sentence
that would sum up all what I have to say
it would be this
you are misleading yourself
to say that you know “for a fact” that u can’t change…
no matter how well u know urself… u can never ever know the future…. no one can
you are seeing / looking at the negative possibilities
&- unfairly so- refusing to equally see / look at the positive possibilities & scenarios
is it good or pleasant
that the only thing i can guarantee you, is a possibility
is it cool that it’s al a 50:50 chance
no
it’s not
but it’s better than a 100% of only considering the negative
at least it doesn’t have to end
with a young man jumping off a bridge
with a car
into the river
forever breaking his mother’s heart
& forever causing me to sense the loss
&the guilt, for not reaching out to him the right way
or in the right time
at least it gives this young man
the chance to change his mind
i have a lot more to say
but since today is….
today
i’ll end here so as not to risk ruining any chance of you, hopefully, replying to me
so so glad to be reading a later post from you now 🙂