Not everyone, but a lot of people see that I’m weak and try to make me feel small. It makes me lose faith in humans when I see them treat people like shit just because they can. I feel like if you see some sad little thing that is below you, you should just let it fucking be, why can’t people just let me be? I get that I won’t get everyone to like me, I get that. But why can’t people just leave it be? Does no one see that I’m struggling and and on the edge of fucking losing it? If people see the opportunity to walk all over someone they seem to take it more often than not, and makes me so frustrated with the world.
That’s all I have to say. I just know I’m not strong enough or hard enough to stand up with everyone else. I’m always gonna be here on my own getting shot out from all sides.
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Usually the thought of my own demise, while still highly desired, seems a bit tragic to me. But some days, days like today, it seems really beautiful and comforting. I spend way to much time trying to get people to be okay with me, which is so many times a losing battle, so doing it will be kind of like quitting a horrible job in a blaze of glory. Saying fuck it, I’ve had to much of this bullshit. Sure there were good parts, but sometimes those aren’t enough to make me stay.
Some people are just incapable of giving a sh*t and will always push u to the edge. Thats when u should start cuttin em down n treat em the same way they treat u, so they can see what its like.
That’s what I should do yes, but I can’t really bring myself to that point. Either because I just don’t want to make myself that ugly or I’m too weak for that shit. Idk, it sucks.
“Does no one see that I’m struggling and and on the edge of fucking losing it?”
-Yes, they see it, and that’s why people become vultures. They see vulnerability and take advantage.
YEs that’s exactly what they do! It makes me so sad, they see vulnerability and take advantage. Humans are so ugly and fucked up man.
I know exactly how you feel, people do this to me. IDK WHY. Makes me feel famous though. It’s like they need a fucking hobby.
closer to my suicide date I will NOT allow this to happen anymore.