Yesterday, someone told me that I reminded him of his mother. He then went on to explain that his mother was a psychotic, religious lunatic who tortured him as a child because she thought he was “unclean.”
Well, shit. Uh, I’m sorry…?
What am I supposed to say to something like that? “Don’t worry, I don’t plan on reproducing”?
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Perhaps you were projecting “crazy”. Observant people tend to pickup on the craziness in others, but most are too polite to mention it to the person who seems off.
Just a thought, maybe I’m wrong. Maybe you’re the epitome of a well balanced, emotionally together person, and the individual critiquing you was way off.
“Perhaps you were projecting “crazy”. Observant people tend to pickup on the craziness in others”
Yeah, noticed this as well. No matter how hard you try to hide it, people seem to notice you are “off” or that you have problems. This is made more apparent if your self-esteem and self-confidence has been withered beyond hope and you suffer from some form of anxiety around people. People would not even want to do anything with you when they notice it. It’s like you become a social outcast and radioactive or something.
I think you and I both know it had to have been the former. And that’s fucking depressing. He could just smell the evil, smell the batshit crazy.
This has just reaffirmed my belief that I really shouldn’t have any kids. I don’t want to make more crazies and I don’t want to be an abuser, which I know I probably would be. I hope I can get myself sterilized or something. My parents made a terrible mistake when they had me, but hopefully I can prevent the mistake from getting even worse.
Even the normies usually don’t have a great life, so when I read that a lady does not plan to reproduce I can only admire that. Add to that the many, many miseries and pains that accompany childhood and your decision seems all the more humane.
You have a conscience and some semblance of self awareness, so that means your not a full blown narcissist or psychopath. You’re also considerate of others.
You’re also very hard on yourself. You judge yourself harshly and you’re quick to find fault with yourself.
Maybe you might consider focusing on your positive attributes rather than dwelling on your perceived faults. No one is perfect, but geez, I don’t see how perpetually villianizing yourself improves your life.
Maybe it was the same guy who told me I reminded him of his schizophrenic friend who made up that she was raped…. Yeah, I didn’t know how to respond to that one. I’m like I was raped, why would I make that up?
Oh wow. Well, I think you reserve the right to be upset about that.