I have 3rd degree burns over 28% of my body. Unfortunately when I set myself on fire with the intent to die someone found me. The pain I went through for them to keep me alive was unbearable. I know it seems selfish to still want to go after all I put my family through but I do. I can’t live like this anymore. I’m a shell of the person I once was. Does anybody out there understand?
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Can’t understand that level of pain, it’s true. This is surely one of the more extreme methods out there and to survive it must only add to the situation. I do know that they’ve come pretty far with skin grafting/etc.
Certainly, during your convalescence, someone must have spoken to you regarding help and therapy from professionals. It’s worth a shot before giving up. Also worth a shot is to be honest about your feelings with your family and try to get help together.
Try not to look at your survival as a failure, but as a possibility that can give you purpose. Maybe if you find the strength, you can educate and help others in this situation or prevention.
I fully understand what you mean. In some way it’s also selfish to force you to live on. When you try to burn yourself to death it’s quite obvious you realy want to dy. please email me: stefan@deds.nl i realy want to talk to you, i’m in qutie the same situation.
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I realy understand you. i’m thinking about this method too. I think it’s also selfish of the ones that wanted you to survive. When you accept the pain off burning it’s obvious you absolutely want to dy. I realy would like to talk to you please email me: stefan(at)deds.nl
So much pain all at once.
I’m so sorry to hear this happened.
Even though I don’t know you, I know that no one should ever have to go through this.
I think in general, most people can understand the physical pain of being burned more readily than they can understand the inner pain of depression.
(Which is frustrating for us depressed people, desperate for someone to understand.)
People seem more likely to be sympathetic to an outwardly visible injury. But we live in a society where clueless people see depression as a “mood” or a personality flaw or a choice.
Hopefully everyone here at SP is more sympathetic than that, and can offer real comfort and solace.
I haven’t been here in a long time, but back when I was, I remember our old group was wonderfully supportive, nonjudgmental, and empathetic.
And we had fun too.
🙂
why keep going? it is hard to kill yourself and people dont help it. then they make fun of you. you are the reason your life sucks. but they dont help to kill yourself. it is a cruel world. everything you want to do, you have to do it yourself.
What I understand is that I have never been a fully functional fully acceptable person, even at the height of my “glory”. I have not become a shell, I am a shell.
You’re a shell? I guess that begs the question: stuffed or sauced?
Er, that was to a1957, not OP.
Fine question. 🙂 I do believe that would be sauced. Outwardly attractive and tasty but decidedly lacking certain key ingredients inside.
Well, I’m the decidedly cheesy kind. I can’t tell whether i’m under or overcooked
Well lets see, if neglect brought you here then you are undercooked, but if your burden is excessive demands, then you are overcooked. Not sure which. On your next therapy visit be sure to run this up the flagpole!
That idea is half baked, ’57
That idea is half baked, ’57
Oops, now it looks twice baked!
half baked adj. not fully thought through, lacking a sound basis. Which means I’m undercooked, the therapist doesn’t have to tell me so, and I just saved a ton of money on therapy bills!
Well, stick the proverbial thermometer in me, I Am Done!
You guys are making me hungry.
I used to be a good cook/baker. Haven’t made anything in years, but for you I’ll light up those burners. What can I make for you, Cordless? Beef Wellington? Poached salmon? Risotto? Vegetable Samosa? Homemade soup? Or snacky food?
Right now a deep dish pizza sounds good.
I used to make a whole wheat with a homemade crust. What would you like on it: the standards or something special?
Pepperoni, sausage, bacon, black olives, mushrooms, hot peppers, and enough garlic to knock over a draft horse from 30 yards away.
Maybe some finely diced ham also.
I think I gained 2 pounds just by typing that.
You got it!
Your situation highlights the current popular approach to indifference to suffering. Cruelty is still very much alive and well. It found a new home and warm open embrace in “healthcare” where suffering is particularly profitable, especially when it can be sustained.
health is not about solving the problem anymore. it is about suppressing the symptoms. chronic diseases are not cured anymore. nobody cares about underlying cause. they just make you live a little longer so that they can take your money
The longer I treat myself with natural remedies the more I find this to be distinctly true.
Cloe: sorry we took over your thread with our nonsense. I don’t understand your level of pain. Self-immolation would never be an option to me. Your desperation is evident. The only thing I can do is listen. It’s not enough, but it what I can do.
Cloe: I hope you got some sleep.