So.. I am deal with this feel guilty.. right after get a new car today. I don’t expect that I will get one. I should jump in joy and be happy. But I just smiles and nods in thanks to my parents and the dealers and I still unsure if I really deserve it. I don’t feel like I deserve it. I think of my best friend who struggles to get ride and want to improve her life for better. I feel like my life changes too fast. Is that why I feel guilty? that I get good things too fast? Now I feel like I am crazy. Three months ago I tried to die and now I am get this car… I just.. really don’t deserve all good things. I really do not.
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Bean, why are so hard on yourself? You deserve to feel good.
I wish I have a clear answer to that. You are not only one day this. I struggled with self loathe for a long time. If I feel good, then I feel like I take advantage of people. I have really hurt my old friends and love emotionally… I don’t trust myself. I don’t know how.