What’s the point in living when I seem to be physically incapable of forming anything deeper than a surface-level connection with anyone?
I’ve been withdrawing a lot lately. But can you really blame me? After so much social failure, there comes a point where you just stop trying.
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What is your plan to get socially connected?
Every person has a breaking point. One can only withstand so much abuse, rejection, and isolation before they break. I have been resilient enough to endure 35 years of this unbearable existence, but like you, I am slowly withdrawing from society and life itself. It’s probably the best thing I can do for my mental health — apart from ending my existence altogether.
Most people in this world have no fucking idea of what it’s like to endure this hell day after day, week after week, year after year, decade after decade. They have no god damn clue of the effects that prolonged loneliness has on a person. And they don’t really care because the prevailing attitude nowadays is “fuck you, I’ve got mine!” This is especially true in a country like the USA where there is very little social cohesion anymore. People like us are just left to rot and no one gives a shit about us — not even our own families in a lot of cases.
Your withdrawing is a perfectly natural response; one can withstand only so much abuse, rejection, and isolation before they break.
I wrote a longer response a few minutes ago, but for some reason, it was never posted. Let me see if this goes through.
That’s weird. My first comment showed up 10+ minutes after I originally posted it.
it automatically got sent to trash due to f***, and someone restored it from there..
It tends to be a cycle. I mean that…for people like us who don’t seem to get along with others we withdraw…but how can someone connect to a withdrawn individual?
Our brains create explanations for us to cope with rejection and occasionally we make attempts at connection…usually with these explanations in the back of our minds…affecting our interactions….causing exactly the scenarios we wish to avoid.
So we withdraw again and become more depressed which further justifies our explanations etc etc. That is usually how it goes in my observations. And even knowing this a personality trait/behavior is difficult to alter.