I had everything to go through with offing myself… but decisiveness. Now I am at the same position. I could still do it, fly to that cliff and jump. God, why do I doubt so hard… I feel too good.. afraid to let go of this little joy I feel even though I feel no power in myself to do what’s necessary to actually live my life… to climb out where I have let myself fall again.
I feel like I need someone beside me to go through with it, but it’s not fair to others.
where did I take my decisiveness to lie on the train tracks?… which I sadly survived. Damn train…
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You a swan.