I’m not okay, I feel like I’m constantly drowning. Asking why to everything, why didn’t my dad love me? Am I not enough for him? V isn’t my dad but it still hurts. E doesn’t love me like he loves his daughter. Uncle T loves me but he didn’t love me enough to stay out of jail. J.M loved me then he died. I can’t figure out if I am a bad luck charm or if I’m just insignificant. Why can’t my mom and grandma be enough for me, why do I need a man’s love? Why can’t GOD be enough? HE created me and I love him. I do him wrong every day. Why does everyone leave me? GOD is the only one who hasn’t, he knows how messed up I am and he stays. Eric doesn’t even know me and left, neither did V. I want to be loved and I want to be so in love that it consumes me. I don’t want to be broken anymore. I want to be a kid but, I can’t I know too much I’m too mature to be a kid again. Why doesn’t my dad love me? Why can’t he just be here for me all the shit I went through I’ve made it through but now I’ve got more scars than skin. My dad doesn’t love me he’s the co-author of everything that I am and it’s not pretty. I have to focus in my outsides because my insides are uglier than my dad’s insides.