I’m not diagnosed with DID but I started giving my other persona a name.
I am becoming a demon — literally. My other persona started seeking solace and comfort with violent thoughts like murder and torture. And this “reasonable and good” persona comes out and starts screaming and is getting scared at my demon persona.
I’m literally getting crazier day by day.
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Be aware of your malice, don’t try and cordon it off as a separate part of you. Everyone is composed of many personalities, though the smaller ones often surround desires. What makes you, you, is the interaction between all those micro-personalities and desires, interacting in a giant behavioral network.
I can’t say much about DID or anything useful to that effect. But what I can say is that everyone has the potential to become a monster, and very few realize how easy it would be. It’s good to keep that in mind while holding to your higher ideals. A disorder like that may make it more difficult, but really, it doesn’t change that much.
If this is becoming a problem for you, then you should probably seek professional help. You’d owe it to yourself and possibly others.
What bd says is wise. Run towards your darkness. If you fear it, you will amputate a part of yourself, thus becoming even more fragmented. Everyone has that monster and animal within. Some become consumed by it for a season, others forever and it does them in; trust that with wisdom and appropriate action you will emerge from the insanity. It can be crazy but believe you will find a way. Trust your instincts and unconscious.