Venting

I’m an ass, really? Are you fucking kidding me?

After what i’ve done for you. I hated calling you kitten, it feels like a stupid thing to call someone and yet i did it because you liked it. You told me you loved it and that it made you all blushy and red.. And now i found out from a mutural friend that you’ve actually hated it. Are you fucking kidding me? You told your friends but never bothered to tell me?

You also hated calling me daddy, but i never told you to call me that. You started calling me that, day one of our relationship because of your daddy/kitten fetish. Yet you told your friends that you didnt like it, but again you never told me.

You also said you loved it when i texted you everyday. When i said goodmorning every morning when i woke up at 8am even though there’s a two hour difference between us. When i asked how was your day. Etc. You told me it made your day. Yet again, i found out that you hated it.

Why are you such a *****? You told them but not me? Im the one whos saying this not them. I asked you several times if im doing something you didnt like and you said no. I asked “Are you sure?” And you said yes. I stayed up on a work week at 2am mutiaple times talking to you. I went to work feeling like im about to pass out. I randomly texted you asking how your day was and wished you a great day thinking that you liked it.

And now im an ass. After one thing i did, when you lied our whole entire relationship. On the night before our breakup i knew you were dealing with some stuff. I tried to help you. I told you to listen to music and watch movies since i knew that helps you deal with your stress and depression. When we broke up i told myself i shouldve stayed up with you that night. Even though it wouldve been my third time in a row going to work tired, but know after finding out you lied our entire relationship im glad i didnt.

I cant fight with you because you blocked me everywhere we talked. But i know you’re reading this since the day of our breakup i told you that you never knew about my past and i never told you because i knew it would cause you more stress which would make you more depressed. i gave you a link to this website on my on one of my older post about my childhood so i know theres a good chance your reading this. i wanted to call you out on it. You instead told me i didnt want your help and used it as an excuse you block me even though i wanted to continue explaining myself.

You know what you’re problem is? You’re not honest. This is why our relationship failed. You built up so much stress because of your lies that it caused you to end our relationship. You told me when we started dating that you didn’t want to fuck it up. But guess that? You did. Next time you meet someone be honest and don’t lie because you’ll never be happy if you lie.

I’ll see you in hell