This is the first Halloween of my life I spend alone. No friends, no girl…just me. Alone.
I fear for Thanksgiving. And Christmas. How will all of these holidays work out? Personally, I just can’t wait for the new year. A new year is a new beginning, I hope.
Someone email me. I’m not suicidal…I guess…but I’m alone. I need someone.
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Happy halloween…I guess.
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you are not the only one, I too am alone for halloween, I dread thanksgiving and christmas too. To me its just another day.
Wow, i actually envy you 2. I would love it if i could just be all alone on hollidays cuz every holliday i see my family or friends , they are having the time of their lives. But then there is me in the back of the room in a corner just wishing that this all could end. Anymore, i hate being with my family cuz they always expect me 2 be happy even though i havent been happy for 6 years, i cant even remember what it feels like. It is also so embarrassing when my parents have 2 remind me 2 smile when i am around family and friends and 2 acutally talk 2 sum of them and not just sit as far away from everyone as possible. I am actually supprised that my parents have not found out that i am depressed. There are only 1 or 2 people that i feel comfortable talking 2 anymore. Both of them are my friends, one of them i actually told bout my depression, so she understands y i am not happy and energetic. The other is my best friend, but i havent told him bout my depression. I always have to act happy and stuff wen i am around him and i cant tell him that i am depressed or cut so i have 2 say things like im tired wenever he wonders y seem sad. And i have 2 say stuff like those cuts on my arm are just from my dog wen he got a little pissed at me. It just pisses me off that i cant tell him, but i actually think that he will try 2 put me in a psycho ward. Although, i am actually looking forward 2 christmas cuz i am gunna kill myself a few days after it if i dont kill myself 2day.
I’m sorry you’re so lonely. It kills me to be lonely and that you are lonley. I know what you mean when you say you need someone. I hate fake relationships where we have to act happy…I’m glad you are real and can say you’re lonely and need someone. You’re honest.
Daniel21.
You are not crazy. You are going through a very difficult thing. Depression sucks the life from ones bones. You are special. Go and talk to someone be it a pastor, a counselor….someone. Stop at a church. You will find support. Your life is worth living.
Don’t ever feel you are allone.
If you want to tlk my email address is
Suicidal.gothic.65@hotmail.com
Ignore the password.. I made it wen I was 11