School is starting soon.
I wasted my summer working to try to catch up to her.
She’s probably on vacation on some island somewhere, basking in the sun and blue waters.
I wasted my summer. On her. And she doesn’t even know.
I’m tired. Exhausted. Burnt out before I was even turned on.
I want to go back. To when I was 12 and I just wanted to die because I feared the future. Because I knew it would be bad and I would have responsibilities but I would never be enough and I would be stuck being insufficient but depended on.
And I was right.
I should have ended it then.
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you should not have ended it. don’t think about her. she probably doesn’t deserve you. right girl will come soon. don’t worry 🙂
Women hold all the power. All my life I have sought their approval. What a pointless exercise. Like a Jew trying to appease the Nazis.
Extreme. I spent my life trying to please men but they left me wanting to die. It goes both ways. I think it’s better to say that humans suck in general and we all hold power, just only over ourselves… not each other. Wish people could refrain from generalising whole groups of people like gender, that’s the kind if stuff Nazis did/do…
I feel you man. I’m in love with someone too.
Feelings…
Yeah it hurts baad, hope we can all forget those who can forget us.