My first suicide attempt on Benadryl

A while back I finally had my first suicide attempt in What Near the end of Nov through December of 2018 I had my first real suicide attempt I am more or less better now out of the “looney bin” but I still wonder if I will ever be happy I know we are not allowed to have partners and what not but honestly I wish I did have a suicidal girl who was both willing to end our lives together in the most painless way together I am not going to post any info on here like I did last time but I still think I am better off dead I just don’t think I will be ever happy someone should kill me but we all know that won’t happen this not the end this is just an acknowledgement of a potential will that if anything terminally ill or mental illness does strike me again just please kill me but it won’t happen.