Everything was going well for a couple days. Today me and my brother josh went to the park and I went with my dad. I wasn’t anxious or depressed at all. Now tonight I can’t sleep and thoughts are racing in my head and it’s sooo painful. I can’t sleep. What’s bothering me is that I’m in a messed up position I feel like. I want to go to school so I can get my diploma or at least get ged. I want a car I want a job. I don’t want to mention my mom although she is blocking me. These thoughts are too heavy for me to bare.