Yesterday was one of the longest days ever. It just seemed to drag on forever, but I was only awake for a pretty standard length of time (17-18 hours). I remember I saw a guy from my team at school, and thinking about it now I honestly thought it was 2-3 days ago. I don’t know why I feel so down from this. It just feels like time is going particularly slow, just to torture me.
I feel sick, both physically and mentally/emotionally. I had this incredibly vivid dream last night. I don’t remember it too well, but my parents and brother were all making fun f me because I was depressed, and it just made me feel so shitty. I started slicing open my arms with my door wide open because it felt like I’d explode if I didn’t do something. I could hear them laughing downstairs though. It was horrible, I just can’t get past how real it felt.
But now yesterday is gone, my dream is over, and I’m here today. I have nothing to do though, so I’m sure it’ll be just as shitty as yesterday (probably worse, at least yesterday I went out of this world). I hate this sling with such a passion. It’s ridiculous how much anger it causes me. Hopefully it’s not too cold outside tonight, although I’m sure it will be.
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Find a hobby; find a job. Get out of the house and away from what obviously sounds like uncaring and irresponsible parents and unloving siblings. Do something; anything. Accept your circumstances and it will quench the anger. A wise person once said it is useless to get angery at people because they don’t know they pissed you off. You are only hurting yourself. If you want to get angry, get angry over something real. Not about your circumstances.
It was in a dream that they were doing that, not real life… I go to school and have hobbies (although can’t do any now because my arm is in a sling for another week-ish).
OMG!I hate those kind of dreams.It feels so real and makes me angry!Play some games?haha.Your arm is fractured?*Hope you get better*
I kinda like them. I dunno. Dreams have always fascinated me. And dislocated shoulder, so they said I can’t move it at all for three weeks, that’s how I got my favourite buddy the sling 🙂 limiting my mobility to nothing. Wonderful.