I am nobody today..

So many levels to my pain, so many demons that still remain at the end of every day. Some days I wake up and want just run away from everyone and everything. Other days I want to stay and fight and maybe have a chance to finally play this hand of life that was dealt to me, with confidence once more in life. I need a win in life more now than I need forgiveness for my sins in life. I draw the line in the sands of time only to find im already on the other side. Already outta time to change the path I’m on, the other side is where I find I reside at this moment in time at this moment in my life. Its my present situation in life, this present moment in time that feels far from a present in life in any way. A gift of time that’s just another blessing that I cant see in life. yesterday is history and long gone, but my mistakes have me living in a past life, currently frozen in time, unable to move on. trying to fix a problem that’s been long gone. Mistakes in life that I cant change now, because they are set in stone. Tomorrow is not so bright in my eyes, because I’m frozen in time and I’m unable to let my past life lie. So my life has became the definition of static, so much that I have turned stone, like a stone so numb and cold and all alone with no way to make it to the end of you road. No longer a rolling stone and now with no way home.