Here We Go

It has been about a year since I’ve visited this site. I’ve still been struggling to make it through every day but they last few weeks have been hitting me harder than usual. I’m all alone in the city and my isolation is taking over my mind. I have been fantasizing about how to end it all but I know it isn’t an option because I don’t want my cat to think I’ve abandoned her. I don’t know if that is a silly reason or not but at least it’s a reason. I’d like to think that she cares about me.
I haven’t talked to my family in about 2-3 years. I’m the middle of my mental breakdown I called my mom asking to see her because maybe that will help me out things back into perspective. (I didn’t mention my reasons, only that I wanted to get away) So here I am, at the airport waiting to see the women I desperately need to see. I’m so grateful she said yes. I was surprised. Maybe things won’t be so bad after all.