It’s been a while

All day today, I feel amiss. I want to cry, but I cannot shed any tears.
I feel like I’m drowning, but I’m still breathing.
I want to reach out but I feel like a burden so I suffer in silence, while pretending everything is okay.
Only when I’m finally by myself, confined to my room, do the tears fall onto the keyboard.
It sucks being overwhelmed, upset and a multitude of other feelings. I’m beginning to become annoyed too, because I’m aware of how I feel, and I shouldn’t be stuck, feeling alone and being so, so sad. I know the world is beautiful.

So why am I like this? I keep asking myself that.