Alone

I really can’t cope with loneliness, I’m really down, this quarantine got me crazy, and make me realize that my life it’s not that great everyone just like me because of my money not even my parents give a f about me, we are not very close all my life I only saw them like an hour per day and they get very mad at me if they see me sad or down , I don’t even want to go to medicine school but everyone expect big things from me I just want to scape from everyone’s expectations, the boy I liked dumped me and that makes me mad ! I also bought him a pandora necklace with our names on it and I took him to Texas Montreal and Orlando and I paid for all of that, really I tried so hard in our aniversary A friend of mine that own a beach and restaurant make me the favor to close it in our day just for us and he didn’t show up that day I TOOK HIM TO LAS VEGAS TO SEE A FIGHT I also give his family church a bunch of things and help her sister in college and he just left me last week the idiot left me !! I was practically perfect to him and he just left meeeeee and I’m not doing good in online school , because I don’t want to I’m so down that I don’t want to deal with school, I’m always in the top grades of all the school and for just this time I wanted to just pass not be the Highest  one and what I get ? All the professors blaming me with e mails about how disappointed  they are  whith me everyone it’s so disappointed whith me and it dives me más because it’s the first time in my life im depressed, And everyone seems so mad at me for that and it make me realize how alone I am what is the point to be always up and perfect if when you fall just one sec everyone it’s going to be so disappointed