as I’ve made clear in my previous posts making a decision has always been extremely hard for me.
and i’ve been fighting the wrong battles for a long time.
this time I am choosing me and I am going to stick to my decision to the end..
trying to be anything to make someone love you or care for you or even at least notice you is the stupidest thing you could ever do and i’ve been doing it like literally my whole life and today I AM DONE.
but it’s hard and it’s painful to choose yourself over the one that you love,
but you will pay a much bigger price if you keep trying to make them love you.
they will destroy your soul.
mine is smashed.