Im 34 at the time, when I was 15 I experienced my first gastritis episode, fucking makes you misserable, pain is so strong and no mater what you do doesnt go away. Beginning of my misery over the next 19 years been dealing with daily pain, cannot eat or drink most of anything, no faty food, no spicy food, no soft drinks no beer no bread shits just sucks so much eat like a fucking rabbit and still experience always present abdominal and gut pain. Have visited 5 gastroenterologists dont know how many regular doctors, naturists remedies you name it I have tried it. Most frustrating part is that medical doctors never heal me, so much differents studies, so many endoscopies so many medicene Im just so tired, have not had a full knight sleep in 19 years, cannot lie on any side or face down cause of the intense pain, have to sleep almost sitting face up. Event with all the fucking precautions each time I get an episode it gets worse more painful, first it was my stomach then also duodenitis now also colitis, gut pain is so fucking intense. I now my health deteriorates as time passes by and the pain gets worse, so now more then ever Im thinking, why not? Isnt fair, I heald my own for 19 years, how much more?
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You’re right, it isn’t fair. We like to tell ourselves that pain can be avoided if we just do the right thing, but a lot of the time bad things just happen randomly to those who’ve done nothing to deserve it. I don’t think anyone could blame you for wanting to end your pain. Nothing lasts forever, but only you can judge whether it’s worth continuing to endure. I hope you encounter something that makes it seem worthwhile.
also 34 I’m about to try a 3 week water fast clean my system also have stomach/bowl issues…I wouldnt touch any medicatation they give you fks u up they dont know fkin shit drs ive had heart and chest pain for 10 yrs now broken heart that wont heal making me misrable n sad duno how much more can take but the dr googling shit while im sat nxt to her then the fkin nurse who was aged like 20 clueless bish says my hearts fine and sure its not in my head!!!!! shootin pain everyday n just hurts when i breath deep wtf do they know anyhow id go with water fast probiotics vit/minerals etc then start small on brocoli and chicken breast with garlic no sugar no acidic things…think ive got stomach ulcer and just general bad guys in my gut just thought ad share goodluck and sorry bout your troubles <3