Reading therapists’ blogs, I see the same stuff. Suicide is wrong. It’s always a sign of irrational thinking. Suicidal people are sick. They just need the right drugs and behavior therapy. SO, it’s OK to restrain them, force them into wards, and force treatment on them. This only keeps me away from any official “mental health” people.
What upsets me more is being told that because I feel a certain way about life, I AM sick. No lab test. No medical data proving it. Other people get to judge my thinking and feeling as wrong. So, no, I won’t talk to them. I’m willing to have a conversation. I respect them and they respect me. We have equal rights to our perspectives and to disagree. That’s not what happens. You’d think with the history of mental health DECIDING that people, like gays and lesbians…, were sick because they were different, the profession would have abandoned labeling people without hard medical evidence.
Sorry for the rant. Because I refuse to let anyone imprison me in a mental ward, I can’t talk frankly about my feelings, what I’m going through. My thinking about my own life should be absolute. No one else should entitled to tell me what my life means. I don’t need a lecture. I just need someone to listen, to let me get things off my chest, and to respect my decisions about what to do with my life and body. But, no. It’s “mental prison for you!” if you step over the line of what other people feel is appropriate-thought.
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If you have an clearance and wide Language, Self-Reflection: One needs at least a Set of Meds and Drugs to maintain perfect self medication.
This is exactly how I feel about this. I made the mistake of taking their drugs. I’m actually really happy to see someone else expressing what I feel but have been unable to put into words.
Thank you for your post. Your words, my thoughts many times. For reasons I still don’t see, societies have decided the world over that suicide is wrong (with few exceptions) and that we deserve “help”. The mental health establishment reflects that widely held belief. It’s a mystery to me.
Before I ever opened up to my therapist, we had a talk about what would get her to contact the authorities. Even before I started that conversation I had researched what would likely trip her trigger. It is a real danger to our well being to go to those places, be it the effects their $2700 a night rates (where I live) or the drugs you just might be tempted to try and most likely regret for a long time.
Because of the initial and follow up conversations about contacting the authorities, and my absolute insistence on no drug use whatsoever, she has been no problem. Following six years of therapy with no problems arising from it, I became resolved to live life for as long as it is reasonable to do so.
I consider my body my own, not the state’s. While I live I pay taxes and help the lives of others, when I die I won’t. Other than my wife, I owe no one on earth my existence, as far as I know. Thanks again for expressing my thoughts in a way I could not do.