In 2017 my older brother died in a highway accident. He was my closest friend even if we didn’t talk a lot since he moved out. Our mom and dad were a lot older than the parents of other kids at school. Both of them kept working at their hospitals through everything that’s goin on even though they were both in that 50+ high risk group. Then this f*#king pandemic took them both in days of each other. So broke & alone. Couldn’t afford to stick around even if I wanted to. Don’t even got anyone to call.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
4 comments
I’m terribly sorry. They must have been really brave to keep working in the hospital. You must been in a lot of terrible pain. If you want to talk just shoot a message.
Hi. Get yourself to a safe place as soon as possible. I don’t know where you live, but even in the USA which has the worst healthcare on the planet, there are free clinics (usually run by nonprofits) where you can check yourself in. That’s where I ended up at my low point and it saved my life. They won’t cure you or fix your problems but they’ll keep you safe during the worst. You might even meet some people who will understand what you’re going through. If you don’t know where to look, you can always call the police non-emergency line and ask, but don’t tell them you’re suicidal because then you lose all your rights. Right now you are going through the worst. Words won’t help, this site won’t help, even the suicide prevention hotline won’t help, the only thing that will help is if you can get yourself to a safe place and hopefully ride it out until you can get your equilibrium back.
Please, do not commit suicide; please, think how it would affect his brother, how it would destroy his life and make him prone to suicide too. He’s your best friend, you’re close to him too, please think how it would mark him for the rest of his life, all the pain that it would cause him. Not to mention how badly it would affect the other family members. Please think how your defunct parents would like you to act, how they want you to be strong and to overcome all challenges. Things WILL get better!!!
Obviously there aren’t words to match that kind of loss. A better society would take care of you during this time. I would say keep surviving for as long as you can – help often arrives at random. But no one can guarantee you it’ll be worth it.