im sitting here in my room, drowning myself in music. will anybody just talk to me? help me?. i just am so sad right now.. i always tell mysel.. im useless. im a nobody. no one would care if i die… no one would ever notice… I just want someone…. i dont have someone to trust to tell them my secrets.. why am i so depressed.. i feel so unloved. useless.. why was i brought into this world…
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If the kindness of faceless ghosts can bring you even a bit of comfort then it will gladly be given. No one here can give you an actual shoulder to cry on sadly. We’re just ghosts.
Just let it all out, buddy. We’re here for you.
we are al fading away where no one even notices… why? why doesnt someone see us?….
i feel so alone… i hate this feeling.
I would love to be physically present right now, but at least having ghosts is better than having nothing.
You can tell us what you need or want to tell.
People do see you. Sometimes you just don’t see them looking.
thats true.. I dont know what i want. you know that feeleing you have when your depressed. Like no one cares about you that emtpy gut feeling but you dont know whats wrong..
Yeah. I know that feeling. I hope you understand that all those feelings, they are all in your mind, and they all tell you falsehoods… ‘No one cares about you’ ‘You’re not worht anything’ Can you learn to seperate those lies from the reality that people care, they just can’t show it ALL the time, CONSTANTLY.
i suppose.. i guess my mind is crazy.. i dont know. i just had this feeeling it wont go away!..
Everyone has that “empty gut feeling”, some people are just better at deluding themselves is all. There is no more secret to life that chilling out. No need to suffer alone in silence either way.
Contacting a psychiatric professional for a screening might not be a bad idea if you’ve consistently had problems with negative emotions. There might be some medication that can help. Being heavily medicated myself, I can safely say it’s a hell of a lot better than trying to cope without meds.
i dont kno if i want to be on medication.. i dont know why. i just get this weird feeling about medication and its not a good feeling..
You can have the medication as an alternative… Do some research first. Going to get some meds doesn’t mean you need to take them, but at least you have a choice. I think you need to talk — talking to your friends or seeing a counsellor might help, and no it is NOT a weakness.
well im the type of person who doesnt like showing my feeling i shovel my emtions in.. i dont do councellors.. i dont do meds.. i doont know… :/
Eh, that’s how I felt about it at first, too. But looking back, I realize that without the ability to pharmacologically manage my (numerous) psychiatric issues, I probably wouldn’t have made it this far.
Taking medications regularly is not a weakness. It does not make you “not normal” or anything like that. You are simply doing what you have to do in order to live your life to the fullest.
I, for one, am certainly not ashamed of having to take a few pills every day in order to be able to function “normally”.
yeahh.. true but at the same time like it kind of seems like it does feel like a weakness or a adnormal thing to do cause its not wht everybody else does you know…i dont kno i do ave some psychatric issues i know it but im too scared to do go to one.. or going to anything like that.
You are not crazy. You have depression. You are not alone in this. I think of it like a mental handicap that just makes coping with life a bit harder, and unlike physical handicaps, it’s harder to get support for it because it’s invisible, so you might doubt it’s existance. DON’T. It’s real, and understanding that is important in learning to cope with it.
It’s unhealthy to keep your emotions in. If you can’t talk to friends or a councillor, if you keep holding it in, it WILL get the better of you eventually, tht is for sure. Meds are an option but I can understand your reluctance. I’ve been dealing with depression for 18 years, only 1 year on meds. I can tell you straight up, the path with meds was a LOT easier. The path without requires a LOT of willpower, support, strength and rationale. It’s your choice, keep in mind if you do meds, it doesn’t have to be forever, you can just try them out to get over a bad hurdle and come off when you feel strong enough to.
It’s not good to keep your feelings in… and the fact that you’re telling us a bit of what is bothering you means that you do want to be heard, and to tell your story.
Of course, it’s your story. You shouldn’t be forced into telling it. If you’re currently more comfortable telling your story here, then go ahead. But of course we are still separated… you need to do the best you can (:
@teshyn – quit reading my mind, it’s freakin me out.
BTW about meds: many people’s depression is a result of an inbalance of brain chemistry. Some people have an inherited gene which stops the brain from producing enough serotonin. The meds just send a signal to the brain to keep producing serotonin… ie. what a ‘normal’ brain would do anyway. So taking meds doesn’t mean you’re weak, it just helps you override that handicap.
You don’t have to be afraid. Having a psychiatric disorder is just like having any other health problem. If it makes you uncomfortable, you don’t even have to tell anybody about your visits or what medications (if any) you’re being prescribed.
The important thing is that you get screened. Let’s put it this way: if you thought you had cancer, would you put off seeing the doctor? Of course not. You’d go right away to find out how severe it was and what you could do to manage it.
Having a psychiatric disorder is much the same thing. Once you take action (i.e. geting screened, getting treatment) then YOU control your disorder and IT no longer controls YOU. Even if your case won’t be helped with medications, most psychiatrists can refer you to a therapist or psychologist who can help you work through your problems.
The bottom line is that you can only benefit from making an appointment. And as for what other people think? Fuck ’em. If someone is shallow enough to judge you because you got help when you needed it, then you don’t need that person in your life.
@one_day: LOL. I’d love to have a mind-reading ability, actually. I used to wish that I’d wake up and be one of the X-Men.
@lalala7913: I forgot to mention that talking to your family might be a good place to start, if you have a good relationship with them. Family support always helps (:
@teshyn: I get to be Rogue – I was here first. You better not say you wanted to be Rogue…
@one_day: Rogue’s power is way too extreme for me. A toned-down version would be great. I’ve always personally hoped that I’d be able to see emotional “residue” on the things people have touched or interacted with. There’s a story behind everything (: Dinner!
the best way is to get close to your religion. if you are Christian always go to church, if you are Muslim go to mosque, if you are Buddhist go to temple. if you are boy like me just play video game. it can release your stress and tension. Every one has a problem but the difference is how you solve the problem. Just enjoy your life there are so many beautiful thing that you can enjoy in this world.
@teshyn: you cannot water down the power of an XMan. Pfft. That is like the ‘Heart’ kid in Captian Planet. Enjoy your chow, dear.
I feel you