Can somebody help me? I am a 15 year old boy, I am alright looking, and I can get girls, I am in the top of all my classes, and I have a great circle of friends, but I have a problem. All through these past 3 weeks, I stay up all night, and have the worst thoughts. I think that everyone hates me, and that I shouldn’t be living anymore. I don’t want to have to wake up tomorrow, I just want my life to end. Last night was the worst, if it wasn’t for my parents next door, I would have crept out and killed myself. Can someone please help? I don’t want to be thinking these thoughts and I just want my life to end. Nobody knows about this, I am too scared to tell them. I need some help, because I feaar that I could end up doing something I don’t want to…
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If you want to stop thinking about it you need to tell someone. There is obviously something wrong deep beneath the surface if you are feeling this way.
Hang in there, teen years are tuff, I don’t know why but they are. Seek a school councelor, your going to have to talk to somone or you are just needlessly suffering when there is help available.
There are psych resources available from many local governments, if you live far away from everything, try a local church minister.
There is a saying, …. “This Too Shall Pass”, just hang on life changes.
Thanks guys (or girls), you have helped a lot, but I am still quite scared of saying anything, but thank you for reading this, and replying, if get these feelings tonight, at least I can read what you said and have some hope, thank you.
15 is the worst age… so hang in there. I went through something similar at 15, there was this record ‘Surfer Rosa’ by the Pixies I used to listen to. Every day I would say, “I’ll kill myself after I listen to that record one more time…” eventually it passed. So yeah, music helps.
15 was the second worst age for me besides 22. Music, poetry, pretty much any art can help. You just have to find something to connect and hang onto. Could be anything – its a personal thing.
To James,
Thanks, I recently had a seminar on poetry, and although it was depressing poems, it made me feel better, maybe I shall try to write one…
To one_day,
I listen to a lot of Linkin Park and Limp Bizket, and Paramore and bands like that, I haven’t heard of that song or group, but I can relate to what you are saying, its usually a song about killing myself though…But I will give that song a listen, and have a look.
@help haha I knew you were too young to know that band, and the band is not important – what’s important is for you to find something that works – FOR YOU! Doesn’t even matter if it’s a song about killing yourself. Better to be listening to a song about killing yourself than actually killing yourself.
@oneday
i’ve made it my end of day mission to go to HMV and pick up that record. I use Joni Mitchells “Blue” to help soothe me into a good sleep when I’m sobering up.
@tphg omg you prob won’t like it… you understand it’s just because I loved it so much, but it’s not really the kind of record you’d expect would help suicidal people… it’s a personal thing, just gotta find what resonates with you. it’s not joni, anyway. May I recomend for your tastes intead, PJ Harveys ‘Let england shake’