It’ll be okay.

I was only 14. I texted my brother and said “you know I’ll always love you” and turned off my phone because I knew his reply would make me stay. I didn’t want to stay. I was constantly self harming, sleeping, failing everyone around me. I dropped out of high school because I knew I would never graduate. I’d never live to. So I took a bottle of pills and passed out on the floor hoping it wouldn’t hurt and hoping everyone would move on from me quickly. But I woke up in a hospital. My head hurt and I felt horrible but I was there. I didn’t really want to be, but I was. I didn’t know if in that moment, but I almost missed out. Since then I fell in love, fell out of love, fell in love again but with a better person, had my first kiss, got my first car, met my beautiful nieces, beat depression, and learned that life is full of beautiful things I would’ve never gotten to experience. I’m 18 now, I graduate high school in May. You need to stay, and you need to stay loudly. Your presence affects everything, and if you’re not there who’s going to be there for all the people that are going to need you? Who’s going to love all the people you were meant to love? Your presence is necessary. Stay, you won’t regret it.