I have been happy maybe once. My first boyfriend i loved so much. Every other day of my life is so unhappy. Good things happen, but the default of my emotions are extremely sad. I take 2 different Add meds in the day. That helps sometimes. Pot is very much helpful. I can be sobbing and i smoke and its like i didnt feel like that. I have tried so many times to die. I dont want to because im a Christian and i have two cats i would never leave behind. What the hell should i do then?
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I think you should try to live, at least as long as your cats are alive. I made a promise to myself that I`d live until my dog died, because I didn`t want him to experience the pain of losing me. It was my main reason to keep on living, to make sure he has a good life.
If you were happy once you might be happy again at some point. The fact that life is bad right now doesn’t mean it’s always going to be like that, even if it seems difficult to believe. Might be wrong tho, but happiness (at least to me) tends to be fleeting, moments in between huge chunks or regular life or unhappiness (or both). That doesn’t mean it isn’t worth living (imho), just that for some it takes a bit more effort.