The internet is forever, so if I did die, at least I left something behind:
It’s that time of year again where most of your friends, family, people you follow, post to the world how much they love their “significant” love one. It’s always depressing around this time of year because of the choices I make to better my future doesn’t lead me to finding my special someone. Because I picked a job that is dominated by guys, and especially people way older than me, I rarely interact with the opposite sex. Just because the government says talking to strangers is the equivalent to killing them because of Covid, it’s bad to meet new people. It’s depressing! I hate having suicidal thoughts because I don’t want to disappoint my parents or leave an empty space with my family and friends, but I just can’t take it anymore! I’m 20 and never had a girlfriend because of my choices to better my future. Instead of going through high school like everyone else, I did a technical school to better my future. It just doesn’t feel like its worth it. It may be selfish of me for wanting a girlfriend and wanting to meet new people, but I just can’t handle it anymore. I know I won’t die anytime soon, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t have thoughts of dying quicker than God’s ideal time.
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Hey, you`re not selfish for wanting to meet new people and get a girlfriend. It`s completely natural. This covid thing isolates people, and to say it sucks is a major understatement. Valentines day seems to make a lot of people feel lonely, but I hope you meet the right person soon.
You might meet someone eventually, but yeah, right now it’s really a lot harder than it used to be. This pandemic made everything harder, honestly. YMMV, but it took me decades to find someone (that didn’t go well, but that’s another story), and i wasn’t even on a male centric environment, for some it just takes more time. Do keep in mind, valentine’s is pure BS and i’m not just saying that because i spent it alone, lol. It’s just a commercial day to sell flowers and candy, if you love someone you care for them everyday, not just one day a year.