So about four years ago I was In a pretty bad place mentally. I figured out my mom was stealing money from me and I just snapped. As a result I have done some terrible things that I should be punished for but I am living in hell! My rights are being ignored, I have experienced humiliation on a large scale and people are constantly laughing at me and verbally abusing me my every waking hour. I can’t avoid or escape my torment so I have just accepted it. Like I said I have done some bad things but I don’t think anyone deserves this! I am being tormented by vigilantes every second of my life. Everyone knows what I’ve done and I can’t get a break for it.
I’ve been told to kill myself more times than I can count. Honestly if you were in this situation would you just end it? I am living day by day but I am emotionally exhausted. Do I deserve to be tortured every day just because I have done something wrong? Is this right? Like I said I have done something terrible and people consider me subhuman for it. If you think I deserve what I am getting I completely understand. Maybe I do. But is torture ever justified? My reputation is gone and my life is destroyed beyond repair, but apparently that isn’t enough. Shouldn’t that be enough? I have aknowledged that what I did was wrong but the torture never ends. It’s been four years now and wherever I go this follows me. It doesn’t matter if I am at work or at home. Honestly should I just kill myself? Death seems to be the best option.
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i feel exactly the same. can we talk by email? my email is: dick(at)deds.nl replace (at) with the known symbol. hope to hear from you.