Sometimes it’s not really about pain. Sometimes it’s about time. I’m old. Physically & mentally. I have multiple “health Issues”. Some are Fatal with time. No cures for 2 of them. I’m just really, really tired of being alive. There’s really nothing left. I am alive today, and I will be alive tomorrow. It’s because I cant leave my wife like this. She wants me around along as possible. I don’t think she knows what it’s like to be around someone who dies slowly & in pain. But she has earned the right to find out if she wants to.
I’ve been in situations where I have handled (physically) many, many suicides. And your website is right – mostly. More pain than resources. I would say to many people thinking about suicide: There is someone else out in InternetLand that just needs You. Think about it. 2 people who do not know about each other. Both feel alone and hopeless. All they need is each other…but will they ever know about each other? Maybe that should be a website? Just a thought.
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I stayed for the same reason you are staying. Eight years ago I had a plan and a par+ner and was ready and eager to go. But my par+ner decided on the very day we would go that I should not go out of consideration for my wife. My step daughter also found out I had planned to go and strongly, convincingly, insisted I stay.
I honored these two requests by getting a very fine therapist seven years ago and have reached some degree of peace with surely more to come.
Someday I may once again see good reason to go but I hope not but who knows. Right now I am 64 with my brain doing the best ever and a body that gives very little trouble. We shall see…