i go through these fucking episodes where im just indifferent to everything. its happening right now and im laying in bed listening to duster and theres just this very intense feeling of numbness and hopelessness. its hard to even type this because whenever this happens everything just feels empty and its hard to even move. If i try to walk it feels like im dragging myself, like my body is completely hollow. i have no idea what this is but i dont even want to do anything when this happens i just want to curl up and dissapear. i dont want to scroll mindlessly on my phone i dont want to sleep i dont want to eat i dont want to move i dont want to stay still, i just feel like a shell of a human.
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Stillness is the only comfort left for me as well. Like a clock winding down to total silence.
It sounds to be like a panic attack so you just have to ride the storm put til it passes. It took me about 6 months to wean myself of lexapro and olanzipine having been on them for 10 yrs. No more of that poison for one thing. I like weed but problametically sleeping pills also. So i have to sweet talk a female doctor in order to have Ambien every fucking two weeks to use at night with weed.
kind of eerie how i was listening t o duster reading this post, i felt that
I don’t know if it’s gonna help you, but everytime I feel horrible I write something similar to an E-mail in my notes, where I write to a specific person or group and tell them how I feel… After that I mostly feel at least a little bit better ? If you want an example I could send one. Just comment. I am here every evening so yeah just write.