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Dearest You17 <3

i remember your previous [first] post here in January
& i remember i was completely heart-struck by it

i want you to know i was really intending to reply
i just got delayed a few days
and then when i came back i saw you've had several people commenting and you replied to them

it felt like maybe all that could be said was said
and that you've received the needed insight to move forwards

You17, i'm so so sorry that this wasn't the case

listen, i have a whole lot to write you,
and i want you to know i'd be more than willing to help you through out this dark storm you're going through
step by step
and even afterwards

for now, just a mini-version of what i have to say

Angel your life is *not* over
None of the things you mentioned,
whether here or in the previous post,
are by any means *permanent*

Your drop-out from high school, we can so very easily turn it to your advantage
We take this as an opportunity
to identify exactly what troubles you're facing in studying
It is very possible that, in addition to your depression,
there's an underlying learning disability that's preventing you from being on par with your colleagues

We can also use that time to have you study on your own,
at your own pace,
in your own way

Prepare for as much time as you need,
and then you re-enroll and sit for the exams

With that done, you'd have recovered from that fall,
and now everything is back on track
Your prospects are instantly all back on the horizon,
and you get to pick and choose how you wish to proceed

i understand so very well
how the family troubles you've mentioned are certainly not making things easier,
but from everything you've written,
it seems very clear to me that your main main problem here is with the high school collapse you've experienced,
everything else is,
at least for now,
secondary

so, angel, this is my advice
throw *everything else* on the back seat
put all your energy and focus only only on the high school matter

i understand the wedding is tomorrow
At the time being,
and as much as possible,
we're trying to mitigate things with everyone around you
so as to keep the problems you need to deal with to an absolute minimum
and also because we will need the financial and logistical support from your family
once we have a solid plan on what needs to be done
for you to get back to high school and graduate

so as hard as i know it will be
please do not voice out any objections or create any negative situations

if that's your mom's decision,
we'll just have to adapt to it until we have the capability
to possibly relocate to somewhere safer and more stable for you to stay at

if you're invited,
know it's important to your mom,
and feel you have the psychological strength for it,
try to attend the wedding

& if you can't, try to write her a heartfelt apology and wish her well

Then
if it's feasible that you stay at your grandmother's,
i think you should strive to do so for as long as possible
while, at the same time,
not creating any problems with your mom or step father

it's usually very common that grandparents are delighted to have their grandchildren stay with them,
most most specially if you volunteer to help your grandma out with chores and things she needs
[even if it's something as simple as getting groceries or watering house plants]
and maybe have some hours of quality time with her everyday,
believe me she'll be the one holding on to you

if you have to go back home for some time,
be nice and pleasant, but also keep to yourself and keep contact with your step father to a minimum
consider yourself a guest
[i know it sucks but it will help you manage things better]

Now to shift your attention away from anything that's bothering you,
let's put all our focus on our *Justme17 Returns* mission

Step 1 is research
i need you to look up exactly what you need to do to get back to high school
and whether or not there are any time limits since your drop-out date,
or perhaps a change in rules and requirements
depending on how much time has passed since you've dropped-out
till the day you re-enrolled
[For example, if you're still within 1 or 2 years since dropping out,
you might be given the opportunity to just sit the exams immediately,
without having to go through the school year itself]

This will help us plan the time frame
within which we'll be working

Step 2 is requesting and taking learning disability evaluation tests
from any resources available to you
Start by asking the psychiatrist\therapist you've most recently been in contact with about it

Step 3 is then getting the materials we need to refresh your past information base and gain the information needed for you to take the exams

Once all done & ready, Step 4 would be to reapply to high school,
possibly having attained some kind of waiver for a diagnosed disability
which will make it even more accommodated and easier for you to successfully pass your exams and graduate

From then on, the sky is your limit
You've made it
Congrats in advance You17
🙂

Most important thing to me in all is this is
Please do not give up
There's so so much hope that this situation can be turned to the better
Even even if anything doesn't work out as we hope,
we can still find a way to move forwards, it won't be over

i'm here angel
You've been heard
i'm listening
it's gonna be okay <3