too tired again

its currently 4:00pm and I’m still in bed, blankets over the windows in the dark crying. sounds pathetic right? well to be honest I don’t want to move because I can’t, hear but the muffled noises from the TV and then its quiet… its nothing im in the dark again wondering why now? why now out of all times? and thing like why cant i be normal? Normal being able to get out of bed and enjoy life without worries and cares. but alas i cant live like that it seems impossible.