I am a honour roll student so the 60% I got on my midterm should feel like the end of the world. Instead it feels just like any other mark I’ve ever gotten. I could watch my whole world crumble around me and it wouldn’t even phase me. It is like things are happening to me or around me and I could do anything and the outcome would be the same each time. I am living in a constant loop of the same events and the same numb feeling I cannot escape from.
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I know that pain. I had a 4.0 but mental illness kissed that goodbye. I didn’t care until my senior year in high school when my GPA got too low. Let the world crumble but don’t let it crush you. Work as hard as you can while prioritizing recovery. In the end, no bad grade defines you. I hope the numbness gets better. Stay strong.
I just got a 63% too. I’m generally 95+. It was a conscious decision to value more in life than a number that proves you’re worth something. I know it’s important for your career and all, but there’s always going to be tests to take. There’ll always be another course you could take, another stamp of approval you could earn, cos education’s a business. Don’t fall for the scam. Only work for your 90s where you need them. Like if you’re going to be a lawyer there isn’t much point scoring a 100 in math.
Take care of yourself. I know it’s hard to do anything with depression weighing you down. But don’t be ashamed. Scoring worse than usual doesn’t make you less of a person.