I wish every way weren’t so scary

I believe this to be the number one concern with the vast majority of people wishing to take the final exit from here. I have spent years ( on & off ) trying to find a guaranteed, painless departure, and you know what ? even if I found it, I’d still need the courage to take that final step, I guess because death is the great unknown, not to mention my family. The only pain free way I found happens to look rather complex and alot of hassle in getting the required equipment.

I am sorry you find yourself in this bleak and grim situation. It sounds to me like the job you had was the only thing keeping your head above water, which is why I think you should ( For now, at least ) throw yourself into creating a good CV and applying for lots of jobs, be it Supermarket work, Office, call centre, whatever. Thats what I did and its certainly improved my situation ( again, for now ) We need to be occupied, and we must have structure, routine and a purpose, or we sink into the abyss of no hope whatsoever, we fester and wilt away as depression sucks us under further still.

Keep sharing, Hope Would Be Nice. Its paramount you do, even if there are no replies, please keep putting your feelings out there!