That’s what I would be remembered as. The girl who just couldn’t take it. Couldn’t take the stress, the sadness, the yelling, the anger. The one who just wasn’t strong enough to handle life. I feel like I was born to commit suicide. I feel like I’m in my last moments: Being sick of live, not caring, planning my suicide methond. Is this what people who commit suicide feel like?
I’ll be forgotten in a couple of year, but until then, I’ll be remembered as the girl who just couldn’t take it.
My sisters will ask eachother “Why did she do it?” and my Aunt will say “She just coulnd’t take anything anymore.”
I don’t want to be remembered as a failure.
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Yes this is what it feels like.
You will remembered as long as people who knew you live.
If you want to be remembered another way, live and overcome.
This too shall pass, hang in there.
It means you are normal.
There is nothing to live for.
Very few realize this important fact.
Only fools can take the shit people try to throw at you on a daily basis.
Long live suicidal people….that is the ones that kill themselves because they love themselves too much to allow themselves to spend another day in the company of animals pretending to be human.
Stop reincarnating as humans, we will love you more if you quit pretending to be human.
You are not a failure.
The human race is highly flawed and these flaws came way before you were born.
Cannot blame youself for millions of years of faulty natural engineering.
Humans are the only animals on earth that waste tremedous amounts of resources…. sometimes for practicalyl pointless things.
And many feel that suffering caused by human decisions is an integral part of life. Which is crap because any choice could have went a better way.
You are not a failure. Only a vicitim of your flawed species.
WOW, Well said, U.N. Owen. So fucking true.
The girl who could not take it. Are you a teen.
Yes. I’m 16.
Some people might think of you as a failure.
If I knew you, I wouldn’t. I’d only think of myself as a failure for not showing enough love, for not being able to help. I’m not the only one.
The longer you live, the better chance you have of meeting these people. These people who make you want to live.
Thank you so much for your comment. This means a lot to me. I’ve never had a lot of people in my life who care about me, but I do look forward to finding them in the future. If I can just find thoes people, my life would be a little more bearable.
i can relate. more than you think. talk to me? cause i kinda need someone with a story like yours to talk to, too. ella_david513@yahoo.com
Of course! You can talk to me anytime! I’ll send you a message.
Nothing wrong with taking responsibility for your choices and their aftermath. that is maturity.
But blaming yourself harshly just is not right.
Every damaging idea we in this modern time have learned existed before us.
All the malevolence was here before us.
All we can do is the best that we can giving our circumstances and opportunities.
Life is not as easy to negotiate for everyone as some would have you believe.