Breaking point.

I can understand how horrible it must feel to lose something like that. Maybe the coins weren’t worth much monetarily, but it sounds like they were priceless, to you. Those coins represented memories, and had life in them. To lose something so precious…it would crush me too.
Grief is a hard cross to carry, but don’t compound it with a bad choice. I guess I say this because you say you’re 4 months clean. In your shoes, I’d feel tempted to escape that way, so I can’t help but feel concerned about you for that. There’s a reason you quit whatever it was you’re clean from. Hold onto that. You grieve the loss of something–don’t add to your loss in order to cheer yourself back up, or one day, you might grieve that loss as well. Just a warm, firm, concerned, warning is all. You’re likely stronger than I suspect.
It will never replace the original collection, but maybe beginning a new, more expansive collection would help you. You’ve lost memories, but you also have memories left to create! Start that collection, and cherish it the way you you cherished the first collection, because in reality, it’s a continuation of the same collection.

Much Love, Much Respect