Im too afraid to do anything. Im paralyzed by fear and my emotions are overwhelming. Over the course of my life it has gotten worse and worse and now I am isolated.
Im too afraid to do anything. I am miserable and terrified. I am a drain. I am not productive enough. I don’t deserve anything but more suffering, which is probably why Im still alive.
I need help to fix my problems but nobody should ever help me. I really wish someone could help me but everyone should already be aware that its just not worth it.
I dont want emotions or memories anymore. I just want courage. Just enough to end it.
I lost my job because Im mental, I lost my car because Im mental, Im about to lose my home because Im mental, please just give me the courage and compassion to end it.
Ive already let all the people I used to know down. Theres nothing left but fear.
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I can relate to some of that. I get pretty crippling social phobia, and it has a huge impact on the way I live. Every time I leave the house, it’s like I lose control and become someone I don’t want to be, timid and terrified. I wish I could let go of the fear, but at the moment it seems like the best I can do is to try to be aware of it, and not let it totally dominate me when possible. I think I’ve made some limited progress – just acknowledging to myself “I’m getting anxious” when I feel it rising inside sometimes allows me to take a step back and react more calmly. I hope you can find some of the help you need. It’s not about whether you deserve it, but whether it would make your life more worth living.
I’m sorry. I’m scared of everything too. I don’t know what else to say but I’m sorry.