Hi

I havent logged on in a very very very long time. i suddenly get flashbacks from before and i think about how long of a way ive come. sometimes i want to feel like that again, when my life starts getting harder again.

im here to just say that, my mindset has changed. when im sad, i let myself feel that way. and i grow from that. i know this might just be cliche and all, but it took me years to finally have this mindset. and something ive realised is, no matter how many people give you advice or tell u to stop hurting yourself or that ‘there are things to be happy about in life’, nothing can take you out of how bad you feel unless you try it yourself.

im happy now. ive never been happier with my life until this year. i made really hard decisions, but i put myself first this time and i am happy now. i dont regret anything.

I know a lot of you guys are going through a lot, but i just wanted to say that it can get better. you wont hear what im saying or might think that im being cliche and just saying ‘eveerything will get better’. but youll know what i mean when you come to that point where there is no sadness left anymore