I DONT WANT TO KILL MYSELF BUT I DONT WANNA FEEL THIS WAY! Life just feels rough, im tried, its constant pain and the one person I want to be there for me? Just isn’t, it feels one sided, I wait for the phone to ring for a person who i don’t know when they’ll call if they will, im in love and want to spend my life with said person but it feels pointless, im scared they’ve found someone knew, well, they say it isn’t like that. But that isnt easying the pain, or what I’m being told. Its been 5 years i trust their every word. So i ingore it, I can’t talk to anyone about it because I don’t want anyone to know, what I’m going through , I don’t post here because they use to use this site, I felt it was their sitebut I just need to vent sometimes to, anonymously where nobody knows who I am or them….i…just…feel…alone
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The best thing to do is maybe talk to this person, tell them how you feel. If they want to be with you also, they’ll let you know.
Nothing is worse than not knowing. Also if this person doesn’t feel the same way about you then you’re really wasting time that you could devote to finding a different person you’re compatible with.
As the saying goes there are other fish in the sea. I know how it feels to think that there is only that one person who’s perfect for you…I’ve missed out as well.
But it’s just best to move on if the chemistry isn’t there. Plus don’t you think you’d be a lot happier being with someone who feels the same about you, than to chase something that might not work out?
Hello. I’ve been on this site long enough to see some real horror stories of members striking up relationships. The problem is that suicidal people by definition are unreliable. How can anyone commit to a relationship when they can’t commit to living? In your case it doesn’t sound disastrous, but it sounds like the other person is definitely not giving you the care you need, and I think this goes back to the inability to commit to life. Depressed people often cling to each other, but that’s like 2 drowning people trying to swim together. All of this points to the idea that we can only recover if our support person is rock solid, stable and reliable.
I know it hurts like hell because you’ve invested your emotions in the relationship. I can’t say anything to make it better. When the other person starts ignoring your needs while you’re completely infatuated, it’s like a breakup. Two people going in opposite directions. Who knows. maybe it’ll turn out to be a stupid misunderstanding, but I don’t think you would be so distraught over a stupid misunderstanding. In any case, talk away. Getting your feelings out is one way to feel better.
I understand needing the one person. Before I looked for the one person I diligently studied how to be the right person. This could be done even though I am on here and have wanted to leave earth for most of my years. The way I found my one person was knowing my own values and finding out that she shares the same ones (except the dying part) before committing. I keep my one person in my life by diligently studying how to be the right person. I keep saying study because we on here seem to live in a dark cloud, hard to see out of and hard to see much light getting through it.