Fuck life

The worst thing to have ever happened to me is being born. I have no reason to believe in God but part of me wishes he existed so I would have someone to blame for this catastrophe. I wish someone would answer these questions. Why am I forced to take part in life. Why am I thrusted into existence when I’m not equipped to thrive? Did I have to be extremely stupid, ugly and have no useful talents?

Now I’d like to end it all but I’m afraid of the pain that I have to endure in order to finally achieve the peace of mind that I deserve.

Now I have to wake up and expose my stupidity and subject myself to embarrassments every day of my life. All my life I asked to be normal and capable of atleast accomplishing easy tasks. Be good at something now I know it’s too much to ask, there’s only one realistic wish I have, I just request that it happens sooner.