I haven’t been on here in a while and I want to believe that I had been generally doing well during that time. Recently, I have been thinking about cutting again. I haven’t cut for at least six months but it’s been heavy on my mind the past few months since I haven’t been talking to one of my only friends and bad things just keep happening in general.
Today I found out I failed my final for a class I’m retaking. It was the third final in a row I had and I pulled my third all nighter. This class has already set me back a semester and I’m so tired. I feel so stupid all the time. I’m just not good enough. I keep disappointing people. I think I’ll be doing people a favor if I just disappeared forever.
i hate being alive. i hate being me.