Yeah, not expecting much but checking in and wanting to hear from others here, how many of you feel utterly lost? Or just somewhat lost. I can’t necessarily say I have the best clue of how this “life” thing is supposed to work, but right when I was getting any sort of understanding on it, things kind of cave in on me.
I’d like to say I’m not surprised but I am. It gets more surprising each day. I wonder how I’m not completely stunned at this rate.
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I feel utterly lost. I mean it. One third altruistic ambition, one third Dahmer, one third thinking about triggers and quick ends.
I could relate with things being quite split up and all, a large amount of the time my efforts are put into context by how much of a wreck I generally am from day to day, Besides that, especially in terms of things outside me I’m rolling the dice a bunch. Hopefully things become clearer on your end, at the very least you’d have things to look into.
I’ve spent a lot of time confused, so this isn’t new ground. I thought I knew what was going on, and now that’s a memory. See, that’s my theory as to how it works; when life is going your way it feels like things make sense. Then when it stops, you feel confused and lost. It’s about how close your perception matches to the experience you are having.
It’s all temporary though, everyone and everything is temporary. Maybe I’ll fool myself into thinking I know what is going on again. I’ll be lost again though, I know that for a fact, because chaos is eternal.
Yeah, at the very least with this it’s hard to be down to earth enough, small details missed could somehow flip you around both in terms of what is the case and what to do based off that. It at the very least sure is nice when things are cohesive but different spices get added in for everyone. I’d say if the confusion isn’t new ground though, that’s progress, at least you know that you’ve seen it before.
Specifically when it comes to how things are made, yeah, order obviously is built from chaos to some degree. Ingredients are always out there but not all of them are edible from the get go and you could say that the uses aren’t there. When things are edible however, that’s even more chaos since you’ve disrupted their sort of natural form in order to make something that was formed from their displacement, so “order” could possibly be dependent on perception to begin with.
Completely lost here also. One of the great lies we’re told about life is that it “gets better” or we’ll “sort it out”.
I suppose our minds learn how to solve certain problems, but at the same time the world keeps expanding with new unimaginable horrors faster than we can solve them. So it’s like being an an infant learning to walk, but the terrain gets steeper and more hazardous to the point that you finally learn to walk just in time to fall off a cliff.
I honestly can’t fathom how anyone can NOT be lost. Is that the 2nd lie of life, when we’re told that grandma & grandpa retired peacefully and enjoyed their golden years? Even that, when we take a closer look at statistics, is a child’d dream because suicide rates skyrocket amongst people in their “golden years”.
Maybe they should tell the truth to each child: welcome to the world, kid, you don’t stand a chance.
Yeah, ultimately I feel like whatever is focused on in terms of “mainstream” anything doesn’t prepare anyone for how unique individual situations can be at the end of the day and how said situations can consist of so many moving actors which inherently brings uncertainty to the table. They tell you to look here and there when in reality it’s not only looking mostly everywhere but somehow prioritizing based off that and whatever lifespan you may have, knowing that things don’t happen here and there but all the time. To say the least, being on call for that sort of job 24/7 is probably tiring for the majority of people. May just be part of how our society is nowadays, but with what it actually takes to not fall off a cliff like you said, if people were earnest with themselves not all of them would do what’s required.
I guess one of the worst parts due to that about our existence is that obviously, old people who are probably especially young in comparison to the amount of time human history would take place in don’t have it figured out. They may have it figured out the least in fact, age can correlate with mapping out your surroundings but some wouldn’t bother to. I wouldn’t blame them, maybe the wish for things to be simpler isn’t that bad of a deal after all, this “one size fits all” approach certainly does not fit everyone. But nonetheless, since the latter is what we have, a large amount of the struggle comes from there seemingly. Then again, if this post showed anything, I still don’t know what actually goes on day to day, haha. I appreciate your comment here, there’s potentially more success in numbers when it comes to figuring things out.
“maybe the wish for things to be simpler isn’t that bad of a deal after all, this “one size fits all” approach certainly does not fit everyone.”
That’s exactly what I’ve observed in old people (my parents’ generation and older). It’s a cliché but they all seem to crave “the simple life back in the day” to the point of shutting out anything new that they can’t process. Everything from technology to socializing to reading the news gets blocked out of their myopic little bubble, and only comfortable rituals remain. Like you said, I don’t blame them. Whether consciously or not, they realize that we’re all lost in this shitstorm so they choose the safety of ignorance and delusion. Maybe that’s how life is supposed to “get easier” by simply eliminating everything that hurts. But if you don’t have that luxury then you’re screwed. Those are probably the age 65+ suicides and angry dementia cases we hear about. I have no doubt I’m heading for that unless I find the courage to quit the game while I still have some of my wits left.
I’m middle-aged now, and when I was younger, I felt lost. But I realize now that “lost” isn’t the right word. Lost implies that you know where you should be (but aren’t), or where you are supposed to go (but don’t know the way). I don’t belong anywhere. When I was younger, I never fit into any group, but I quickly learned how to fake being social, and I’ve been doing it ever since. I had “friends” in college (I lost touch quickly afterwards) but as I got older, I had fewer and fewer. I have people who think I’m a friend, but they are all work friends and I know that I’m nothing like them, but I can never tell them that. So I recently moved to another state, where I can slowly cut them off. That way, no one needs to know that I am gone, when I decide I should be.
I think in the new state you should try to find people you can be your “real” self around. I think you will definitely find at least a few people you think you can belong with as a group. If you have any hobbies try going to meetups for that hobby. And if you don’t find any place you feel like you belong there’s always the internet, there’ll always be people here who are like you.